A little down....

Don't know why, but I've been feeling a little down for the past few days...perhaps it's the fact that Phoenix is turning 1 in February, or maybe it's the fact that my "baby" is turning 25 on Friday...or perhaps it's from staying inside too much.  What ever it is, I'm not happy feeling like this.  I've been in full on depression before, and this isn't it, but it's the beginning slope and I really don't want to fall into that state of mind once again.

I think that a possible reason could be that I never get to go do anything w/ hubby.  I love my daughter like crazy, but honestly, it's very difficult having her live here with the baby full time.  And caring for him full time is a difficult task.  Don't get me wrong, I love him like crazy, but this isn't the kind of grandma I wanted to be.  I'm glad they are close...wouldn't want them to move away to another town or state, but I'd love to just be a grandma and not a parent again.  Am I looking at this the wrong way?  I had envisioned my grand kids coming over to visit and me spoiling the rotten then sending them home so that mommy & daddy could deal with them.  I can't do that w/ Phoenix...oh no!  I can't spoil him because then I have to deal with him!  

I've got my son and daughter-in-love coming over a bit later on to celebrate my daughters birthday.  She's working on Friday, so the best day was today.  We've already given her her gifts...a new body pillow case, a new blanket and we went in on a new mattress topper for her bed...those gel memory foam toppers.  We were hoping that it would help her back.  Apparently her mattress is just too firm although she needs it firm because of her back injury a couple of years back...the topper helped some, but she is still waking up sore in the morning.   *sigh*

Little man is finishing his lunch and little momma went out to the garage for a few minutes, leaving me to take care of him...so, I've gotta get back on the grandma train!

My Day off...

What a gorgeous day it was today!  Even the evening was beautiful!  I'm so glad I live here where the weather is so mild!  I can't even imagine living where it snows!  Today is the first day off of 2 for me.  So nice to be able to just relax and work on my computer without anyone coming up looking for attention...you know who I mean.  I love our little man, but he is a curious little fellow!
My dinner is nearly done...just waiting for the bread to bake.  I feel so hungry all of the sudden!
I watched a movie with my daughter yesterday...it was sooo good! "Hope Springs" with Tommy Lee Jones and Meryl Streep....they made it seem as if we were actually looking into the real lives of people rather than watching a movie...brilliant actors!  I'd been wanting to see it since I heard about it and was glad that my daughter wanted to see it too.
Chow bell just rang (that would be the timer on the stove), time to fill my belly!

And then there was Friday.....

Here I sit on a Friday evening, in my room, all by myself but for the company of my westie and yorkie.  My babysitting day is over, daughter is home and she has a good friend over.  I decided that I needed a break from the action so brought my laptop to my room so I could get in a line or 2 without being interrupted by the happy hands of an 11 month old.  It's nice just to relax here, but I'm well aware of the fact that I'll be doing it all again tomorrow.
It's been absolutely gorgeous weather right here in river city for the last part of this week....sunny, blue skies, a little windy, but otherwise, gorgeous.  It's jacket weather now instead of the coats everyone was wearing at the beginning of the week.  Nice to be able to look outside and see the sun rather than the grey skies.  My feet were actually getting cold, and trust me, I don't get cold!  Seems as if this global warming is starting to take its toll weather-wise.
My son has been using my car for the last few days so I've been kinda stuck in the house...not that I drive around all that much, but just knowing that I CAN'T makes all the difference!
Well, not much to say apparently so I'm gonna go back to trying to play a game over on FB....or maybe I'll fiddle around with my kindle...razza frazza though....it won't play blue-ray's I put up in the "cloud" because I went to vudu (where the blue-ray instructions told me to go!) and just found out today that they aren't connected through android (which is what the kindle fire is).  I uploaded 2 movies I bought to it and can't even see them on the tablet...grrrr!  Learning new things each and every day...some not so much fun as others though!

New Year/New Begnnings

At the encouragement and behest of my friend, I have decided to give Blogger a try.  I blogged at another social site for years, but also have not blogged on a regular basis for at least 3 years.  I have to agree with Cindy that I do need this outlet, even if I can't be here all the time.  At least I can give it a shot.
So far, this new year holds promise.  If I can just keep myself on track it should be a better year than the last 2.
As far as the name of this blog is concerned, let me just say this:  Cindy actually came up with the name.  You see (she's a real genius, really!) I have a new grandson...well, almost new.  He will be 1 year on the 3rd of February and his name is Phoenix.  As I am caring for him while my beautiful daughter is at work, I have very little time to blog, play games, craft, or be on the computer.  Even after mommy comes home, the first place he gravitates to is ANY electronic equipment.  So, I cannot be on the laptop while he's in the same room.  And, when I'm caring for him, I cannot be on the computer either...he's a bright, busy 11 month old (well, tomorrow he'll be 11 months) and I just don't have time to "compute" while chasing him around the house!  I tell you, keeping a baby entertained for hours upon end is absolutely exhausting!!!  I now realize why young people should be the ones having kids!!!  ;)  At any rate, the name up there "Before Phoenix Rises" denotes my attempt (remember, Cindy's idea) to perhaps get a quick blog in before he awakens from his nap.  Of course the ideal would be to nap while HE'S napping, but as anyone with kids and/or grand kids out there knows, that is just never an absolute action.  Things like eating while they're sleeping or doing a chore while they're sleeping must sometimes take first chair!  So, I'll try to be back here to get a blog in here or there.  I hope you'll understand that my time with him takes first place and that you'll read me anyway, even if I can't always get back to you.  A new beginning, a new year, a new way of life....funny how you get your mindset in one direction and then life comes along and changes everything!